I wanted to share a moment with you that I had when I finished writing my book Song of a Wingfin. I’m only recently an author. My main form of being creative is as a songwriter/musician.
My band dissolved in November of 2019. I felt it best to just focus on my book and set music aside for a while. I honestly wondered how long that would last but in truth, my desire to write songs had dulled in the wake of the break-up. I was bummed and that vibe was getting in the way of hearing the songs in my head.
As I finished writing Song of a Wingfin and began the editing and formatting, I made the choice to pull my guitar out. I messed around with practicing cover songs for an unexpected gig that had come my way, my only one so far for 2020. But I kept thinking about the emotional journey my characters had taken. With those emotions on my heart, I found myself distracted from the intention to practice and melodies began to form. I wrote a song.
I threw a rough recording together and offered it as a free download to anyone who signs up for my newsletter (My freebie has since changed to coloring sheets as I plan an acoustic solo EP. You can sign up for my newsletter here.)Although not directly related to Song of a Wingfin, it is a sort of companion to the lessons within. It felt good to write a tune again, and I’ve even been picking up my guitar more since. Now that my book is out there, perhaps there will be more music gigs on the horizon. I knew I wouldn’t be able to give up the music for long.
“Time” (inspired by Song of a Wingfin) Can you forgive the person I was? ‘Cause I can’t forget how I didn’t show that I loved you enough. My mistakes haunt me in waves. If we only had time, but I don’t know how to be brave. All I want is to love you a little bit longer. Please, won’t you stay? And I will spend every moment making it right. Don’t give up this fight. Because the greatest gift is time. I know you would if you had the power. And it’s selfish of me to be this way in our final hours. You taught me to see the magic in everything. But if you’re not here, how do I find a song to sing? All I want is to love you a little bit longer. Please, won’t you stay? And I will spend every moment making it right. Don’t give up this fight. Because the greatest gift is time. I’ll carry you. I’ll shine for you. Your love will always make me stronger. Lyrics to “Time” (inspired by Song of a Wingfin)
I will say, my book isn’t a big pile of sad emotions. There are a lot of laughs and adventure in there, too. This is just where I was at the time. Perhaps it ended up being a ‘goodbye’ to my characters for a while, too. Who knows how the crazy, creative mind works? I’m just happy to share my stories. Maybe it’ll touch the right person at the right time.